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What does it mean to be 18?

2011-10-21T23:48:00.002+01:00

I turned 18 two days ago. It wasn't as big a deal as I thought it was. Not much have changed, really. I am the same me, just a day older than yesterday. Then I asked myself, what does it mean to be 18?

To me, being 18 means that I have crossed the line that society had drawn out, one that divides a child from an adult. It means that legally, I am recognised as someone who is responsible for herself and her own actions. It means that I can now join the range of all the grown-ups.

Then again, I asked myself, do I really want to be there? In a world full of competition, violence and selfishness, how can one survive? A child has boundless imaginations, dreams and hope. We seem to have lost all that as we grow older. We become this one-dimensional beings, obsessed with making more and more money. Money cannot buy happiness, but alas, without money life can be really hard. While I cannot argue that money is not importance (in fact, I do believe that it is importance), I can't help but wonder how much is enough? I believe that money is the means but it is not the ends. Ultimately, we seek happiness. It is what makes life worthwhile. However, I notice that it is becoming more and more difficult to achieve these days. How can you be truly happy with all the burden society places on us?

Maybe I am naive to think of the world in this way, but as an inexperienced 18 year-old I think my thoughts are justified.

I can't turn the clock back to when I was younger, I can't stop myself from getting older. Even with plastic surgery or advanced medical treatment, our souls still get older every passing second. It is only natural. I wish I could stay as a child for ever, but of course I can't. So in the mean time, I'll just prod along and see what life has to offer. I shall end my rambling now.. It really is getting too long.

It's not the end of the world

2011-08-18T12:28:00.002+01:00

It is definitely not the end of the world. But why do I feel like it is? I have no one to blame but myself.. There's no point in wondering why am I not smarter or why did I do so badly.. I just have to try harder. Sure, I can bring in all the difficulty vocabulary in the world to describe my situation but in the end, it just boils down to one fact: I screwed up.

I had not studied hard enough. That's a fact and the B I got on the first biology unit is a proof of that. I had sworn I would work harder after my exam in primary school, secondary school, O levels and now look at me. Pathetically in the same state as before. Is it the self-pity that is killing me or is it the mere fact that I did not succeed? I think my list of shame will never be complete until I include the sheer disappointment of not being able to get 100/100 for politics.

I don't think I can ever apply to Oxford with a B grade. They want straight 'A's students. I'm more confused now than I ever felt before. What should I expect of myself when every single one of my hopes ended up crushed anyway? If I can't do politics well and I can't do biology well, what am I going to do next??

That sense of frustration, hopelessness and disappointment wouldn't leave me alone. I feel so lost.. Really lost.

March is here!

2011-03-06T19:28:00.002Z

Time is slow for those who wait,

swift for those who fear,

long for those who grieve,

short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love,

time is eternity.

For me now, time is swift. However, I hold no fear. Instead, I rejoice. It had been 62 days since I first arrived on the British shore. It felt so far away, but somehow so recent. The memory is still crisp in my mind. The first look out of the window of the airplane as it touched down on Heathrow runway was that of a dark night but somehow through that darkness, I saw opportunity. I thought about how lucky I am to be living my dream. Who would have believed that I would get a chance to study in England?

It is now March. The days seem to be longer but the temperature still refuses to warm up. The wind is as strong as ever but then again we can see the shifting of the season, a gradual transition for cold and miserable winter into a livelier spring. At the middle of this wonderful changing of the season, I was hit by a small realisation; I'm slowly falling in love with politics. For once, I can imagine myself at university, happily studying a course that I love. Then I asked myself, "Will that become my path from now on?" An honest answer would be I'm not sure. I believe that I'm on the road to self discovery and the answer will come to me soon. I know time is running short but give me a month or so to confirm it as my real passion. Because, at the end of the day, if it is truly something I love, I won't have to struggle through it all as what I've always been doing.

Signing off here! ^^ Phet xoxo

Voluntary works?

2011-02-18T20:28:00.004Z

After school today, I took a long walk from the city centre to Oxfordshire Associate for the Blind on Abingdon Road. I wanted to become one of their volunteers for the House Visiting Programme. I was greeted by one of their staff and had a chat with the Volunteer Officer. She told me that it would be rather difficult for me to join their programme as I'm under 18. She did tell me though that she will keep my application form and will definitely ring me if there is any fund-raising event that I could be of help. Although a little disappointed, I thanked her and made my way back to the city centre to take the bus home.

In front of my computer right now, I'm sifting through a list of Voluntary Organisations in Oxford which welcome volunteers under 18 years of age. I'm having a hard time deciding which one to join. I would love to be a part of an organisation which allows me to really interact with the people and not just raising money for them. I've already has a fair share of that in school as a member of 'Building Future' club where we do charity works and raise funds to build schools in less developed countries.

In one way or another, I know that the things that we do are going to help these people immensely but I would really like to get to know them as well. Sometimes you are so focused on yourself that you missed out on everything that is happening around you. You forget how fortunate you are to be leading the life that you so despised. I have heard people, with a perfectly normal lives, cursing their lives so many times in a week. Do they even realise how lucky they actually are? You can sometimes be so self-centred that you do not have the time to empathise with others who would do anything to be you.

It's a thought worth pondering over.

Hydrogen peroxide experiment

2011-02-16T19:06:00.002Z

I just came back from school and felt totally exhausted. School ended at 5 pm today. I met Amp at the study centre and printed out my Biology homework before we headed out in the cold. It was supposed to be 2 degrees out there but somehow I think that it was much colder in the morning. That aside, we walked our way through the familiar route to Cornmarket Street where we stopped at Tesco for grocery. We are planning another 'Cooking Session' on Saturday after our badminton club. We are definitely dragging Train along this time. :)

Just to refer to this entry's title for just a little bit, we had a Biology practical on the enzyme catalase today. We had to weigh 4 g of chicken liver, chopped them up into 20 tiny pieces and add hydrogen peroxide to it. Catalase, which is known for having the fastest 'turn over' rate, works incredibly fast. About 7 s is all it takes for 50 cm3 of bubbles to form and eventually overflowed the test tube. It was fascinating to watch and that was before we added iron filings, the catalyst. The reaction produced 50 cm3 of bubbles within 3 s! That was just phenomenal. Catalase breaks down 40 millions molecules of H2O2 in a second! Amazing stuff.

I hope I haven't bore you to tears with all that facts but I really did enjoy our little experiment there. It's going to be 7.30 soon and that means homework time. I may be making memory cards for Chemistry today. So, as always, I have to get going! I'll write again soon! ^^

Oxford, England

2011-02-14T20:42:00.005Z

I was LAST YEAR since I had posted a blog entry. Things had changed so much since then. I've completed my O levels, left my second home in Singapore, parted with many of my beloved friends, received my O levels results and the most amazing thing of all, had secured a place to study A levels at Bellerbys College, Oxford.

Today, 14th February, which coincidentally is Valentine's day, is the day that I sat down and look back at the wonderful experiences I have had in the past months. The bit about having to leave Singapore still tingled in my mind. It was so hard to leave a place I had come to know as my home. I know that a piece of me would always stays in Singapore. The friends that I made, the opportunities that I've got, they will be imprinted in my hearts for ever.

Now moving on to the O levels results. It was really, really disappointing. I put in so much effort but eventually, the end product is not that satisfying. The part which makes me crumpled is the 5 A2s. And I wonder who else would understand? I know that I've attained 6 distinctions and I don't deny that it is quite decent. However, I felt that it wasn't enough. I was this close to achieving my dream grade and somehow I woke up in the middle of that dream. Do you know how painful that it when you plant something with so much dedication, water it every day, try so hard to see it grows and all of the sudden, it dies, sinking to the ground? Looking at my results feels like looking at a plant which is devoid of life. That aside, I've moved on. It's been a month since the release of the results and there's nothing else I can do about it. I just have to make sure I do better in A levels.

The previous paragraph was depressing huh? Now, let's come to the part filled with laughters and fun! I AM IN ENGLAND!!! WOOHOO! It's a dream come true. I've just realised that I've been out every single weekends since I arrived here~ I've been to London twice, once with O, his parents, Amp and Train. It was on Saturday the 15th of January. We visited the Big Ben, overseen the famous House of Parliament, walked along the London Bridge, soaked up the atmosphere at Tate Modern, seen the breath-taking architecture of St Paul's cathedral and ended the night with dinner at Chinatown. It was such a memorable experience.

Another trip there was more recent. It was actually last Friday. As per usual, there was only us, the three musketeers, Amp, Train and I! We jumped on the coach bound for London the minute our classes ended at 4.30. In comparison with the train, the coach took about twice as long to get from Oxford to London (about 2 hours). Seeing as we have booked tickets for Lion King the Musical at 7.30pm, we were starting to feel agitated when the clock struck 7. It was fortunate that we finally found our way to the Lyceum theater by 7.20pm. (After running like we are on the national team, of course) The musical itself was superb, extremely compelling and the musical as a whole is so powerful. The casts, the songs, the backdrops. Everything was simply amazing! 74 pounds suddenly seems reasonable. (though I wouldn't mind a cheaper ticket with the same seating area >_<

After the musical, we headed to the Youth Hostel that we've booked online. After alighting at Earl's court underground station, we were on the 'pursuit' mode for our accommodation. It was quite lovely with acceptable bed and hot shower. It was centrally located and for the price of 22 pounds, it wasn't that bad. The only thing is that, with Train with us, Amp and I had to share the bed. Train, who made a last minute decision to accompany us on our London trip, got a bed all to himself. We were starving by that time (It was midnight!) and therefore chose to eat at KFC, which is one of the places that hadn't closed yet. We went back to the hostel at 1am and by 2am, we gave in to the physical exhaustion and fell into deep sleep.

I was the first one up in the morning at 7am, all thanks to the morning sun which shone brightly into our room. It was hard to come to terms with but yes, it was actually SUNNY in London that day. We went to Westfield mall to collect the things my Mom sent to me via my Dad's friend and then walked to the nearby restaurant to have our brunch. A first glance at the menu revealed 'Fish and chips' as one of the options and so, that was what I had ordered, a decision I soon regretted. It was the WORST Fish and chips I had ever had! The fishy smell was so strong, it was so hard to swallow it. I gave up after I was done with half of it. You just have to be careful which food you choose at which restaurant. Fish and chips is definitely not the best dish there.

Afterwards, we headed to British museum and had a lovely walk through the park at Russell square. Sunny weather made the park looked all the more beautiful and something inside me stirred; right there, I fell in love with England all over again.

I think I'm rambling here. I need to get off the computer and start getting other things done. So until next time, wait for another adventure of my friends and I in this strange but delightful country of England! Bye!

xoxo, Pinkiiz Phet 14 Feb 2011 <3

Oh My Gosh!

2010-07-05T14:03:00.003+01:00

How could I ever sufficiently express my relief in words? I have successfully completed 4 of Ms Kong essay! Totally unbelievable! Am I dreaming or something?

I mean, seriously?!

Ahhhh.. This is heaven, man. If not for Maths, A-maths and SS homework that I need to complete before tomorrow. And it's now 9 PM already, mind you..

Awww.. Go back to your work, Phet. Another tough day at school tomorrow for sure.

No great man ever complains of want of opportunities.
--- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Finally a "not-quite" holiday~

2010-03-14T12:28:00.002Z

Whoa.. My life is spinning out of control. I can barely keep up with the pace in which every one is adapting to right now. It somehow feels alien, unfamiliar. I just hope it will end soon; this crazy experience. I always wonder how people survived their 'o' levels.. I'm gonna find out soon..

"Beyond that field.."

Tomorrow's the day!

2010-01-18T08:35:00.004Z

Supplementary lessons start tomorrow. You wouldn't be able to imagine my relief, knowing that there'll be no night lesson for Geography. So, this means that I can make it for English tuition night class at Coleman College! ;D

Life is quite hectic nowadays. I just have to keep on reminding myself that this's just the beginning of everything.

I really need to catch up on A-maths. I'm still in a state of shock at how Ms.Choo can finish 3 chapters for A-maths in exactly 3 lessons. Haiz.. A lot of work here and there..

Another New Year.. Another Beginning

2010-01-01T01:35:00.003Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 TO ALL!

Wow.. what a year it had been. 2009 is gone and here comes my last year of secondary school. 2009 was a year of love, sorrow, joy, surprises. A year of celebration. A year of appreciation. A year of giving and receiving love. It was a year to remember.

For those whom I have caused you anger, pain or disappointment, please accept my deepest apology and I sincerely hope that you will not take those matters to heart. For those who have caused me anger, pain or disappointment, you are forgiven. For those who have made 2009 a memorable year for me, THANK YOU, with all my heart. I will never forget how fortunate I am to have such wonderful people in my life.

Now, here are my New Year's resolution:

1. Have a mindset that O level always come first!

2. Always be eager and enthusiastic to learn.

3. Prepare for my O level well.

4. Appreciate every moment of 2010. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. It I'm able to accept that, it would bring my perspective to a whole new level. Let me wish for myself to be able to do that.

Of course, I'm aware of the obstacles that may come my way. So, here's a video to remind myself how to really achieve my New Year's resolution.

Good bye 2009, I'll always remember you!

London City... My Dream City

2009-12-28T15:14:00.002Z

Tough and tiring year ahead of me... That's confirmed.

I've finally decided on my path. I'm gonna take Psychology at SWU in Bangkok.

Here's how it'll most likely go:

I'll be spending half a year studying all the basic knowledge on medicine.

The next 2 years, I'll be continuing my course in England.

The next 3 years or so, I'll be coming back to SWU to complete my course.

Sounds pretty easy, huh? Hmm.. but not quite.

I'll have to really focus next year. If I lose sight of my goal, I'm certain that's the end of it. I just can't believe how far I have come. Throughout this 2 years in Singapore, I've learn a lot. It's like climbing up a really steep and slippery ladder. I'm this close to reaching the top. There's no way I would let myself slide down, hit the ground and start all over again.

No matter how difficult it is to hold on to this perilous ladder, I'm sure to tighten my grip. Mom, Dad, Grandma, I promise I'll reach the top one day. Please support me and do cushion my fall, if I ever do fail.

I ♥ you all.

All I want for Christmas is 'you'

2009-12-24T13:31:00.005Z

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace

Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick

I won't even stay awake to

Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby

All the lights are shining

So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you...

"when you wish upon the star.."

Care?

2009-12-21T09:05:00.004Z

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

The Beauty of Letting Go..

2009-12-12T14:39:00.002Z

I'm off to Korea tomorrow night, leaving behind piles after piles of undone assignments.

"I heard someone whisper your name, but when I turned around to see who it was, I was alone. Then I realized that it was my heart telling me that I miss you."

Breathe..

2009-12-09T14:26:00.003Z

I'm sooo busy right now. I miss my blog. I miss all my friend. **คิดถึงเขาคนนั้นด้วย ;-(

I'll update my blog when I'm finished with all my extra class.

Fresh start~

2009-11-22T03:55:00.003Z

Hello~~ I'm back from the camp!! ^^

Overall, it was fun but at the same time, very exhausting, especially on the 2nd day. In the morning, some of us have drill test at St.Hilda's Sec. The Drill Instructors there are famous for being strict. So, we must maintain our general smartness at all time. Tiring? Definitely! ;(

And anyway, I think I'll fail the test. Heard the command wrongly once and executed wrongly twice!! I heard 'ka-kanan' as 'ka-hadapan'!! What a huge mistake!! T^T Plus, I don't understand why they gave 'Bergerak ka-kiri bertiga-tiga ka-belakang pusing' when we were facing our true front!!

*sigh* I shall not think about that anymore.

Moving on, we had our Sentosa outing in the afternoon. I had so much fun until I was attacked by the terrible headache. It was totally horrible. Thanks to my group members that were so supportive and helped me out when I was at my worst.

During dinner, I forced myself to eat my least favourite meal; Chicken Rice!! (For crying out loud!! T^T) If not, they wouldn't allow me to join them for the Night Walk. I was NOT going to miss that. So, I finished up all the chicken and we went off to the Dragon Trail.

In the end, the chicken rice and lots of water actually gave me energy to carry on. Surprisingly, our group came in 1st for the night walk activity, despite being the last to start on the trail.

Pamela told us, "It's not the result that matters. It's the process."

I think I have learnt a lot from this camp and I realise team spirit is essential when working in group! ;D I wish we'll have another camp next year!! ^^

Fresh start~ How wonderful this world is when everything exists in harmony.

PHYSICS SPA!

2009-11-15T13:09:00.008Z

OMG!! There's Physics SPA tomorrow!!

Why does it have to be on 'wave', the topic all of us knows nothing about?

Wish me luck.. as I can foretell I'm gonna need it a lot tomorrow.

A girl can always dream~

Letter for you ^^

2009-11-11T14:52:00.003Z

"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them." Thomas Merton

Hmm.. true

Complicated?

2009-11-11T09:37:00.004Z

Today's maths lesson was the most entertaining in the past 1 year! This may well be the first time I was ALWAYS at the edge of my seat. We played a game! ;D

We need to think of a title of a book, movie, song, etc.. and Mr.Te would use a calculator function to randomly pick a register number. Whoever got chosen will need to come up in front of the class and try to draw things related to their titles for the class to guess.

Seriously, Mr.Te is more relaxed. He even asked us to put on PE attire tomorrow. He's bringing us to the Indoor Sport Hall for the 4 periods! PE...Here I come!!! ;))))

Why make things complicated?

"If you really want to do something, you will find a way. If you don't, you will find an excuse."

Harmony in nature..

2009-11-07T07:59:00.004Z

I was surfing the net when I came across this:

Isn't this like..the cutest thing you've ever seen? Awww.. sweet, little boy with a small, white bunny.

I need to go to school for drill practice at 2pm. How tiring.. My body is still aching from last Friday session. Long commands!!! T^T

"In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe." -- Michael Jackson

Mae... T^T

2009-11-06T12:07:00.005Z

Let me do a simple summary here.

Details for the up-coming SPA (Physics, Chemistry and Biology) :
- Physics = Waves
- Chemistry = Volumetric Analysis/Rate of reaction
- Biology = Enzymes

I'm pretty concern about Bio SPA as I think we didn't really practice much on the experiements. Ms.Lenny mentioned it being "tricky". So..I really hope I won't be tricked by it.

I had drill practice today at the sheltered court. I'm taking drill stage 2 on 20th this month! Wish me luck! Though I'm still a bit confused on the long commands, but well, I'll try my best! ;D

Good bye, Mae. ;'(
I really think that she doesn't deserve to be the one going home on Wednesday night (on Singapore Idol). Her performance was amazing. Her delivery of the song 'Over the Rainbow' was so sincere and powerful. I wonder whether this show is about talents or just simply looks. How I wish I could see her perform again.

My Special Birthday! ^^

2009-10-25T06:38:00.016Z

Here comes my post about my birthday!!

1st of all, I need to thank this wonderful friends for wishing me 'Happy Birthday'! ;D

By sms:
1. Esther
2. Home
3. Huang Kang??
4. Chu Kun
5. Pat Jon
6. Wan Tian
7. Am
8. Joey (Ong)
9. Hui Ying
10. Bernice
11. Mahdhir
12. Cisilia
13. Saiful
14. Adil
15. Joey (Lee)
16. Pamela

On facebook:
1. Jing Han
2. Wan Tian
3. Kimberly
4. Hui Ying
5. Kendra
6. Azarya
7. Sri
8. Clarissa
9. Tin
10. Van
11. Pei Yi
12. Aqilah

Verbally: (not according to any particular order)
Clarissa, Wan Tian, Am, Home, Joey (Ong), Nadiah, Pam, Yong Peng, Shao Yun, Joey (Lee)

I'm sorry if I missed out anyone's name. Just know that I am really happy to recieve birthday wishes from you. Thanks a lot, everyone!

Special thanks go to....
- Clarissa & Wan Tian for the birthday surprise!! ^O^
- Clarissa for the Artbox pencil box!! ^^
- Wan Tian for the cute piggy coin box!! ^^
- Esther & Clarissa for the interesting 'Vampire Academy' book! ^^
- Joey & Kendra for the yummy chocolate!! ^^
- Am & Home for the heart-shaped strawberry cake!! ^^
- Aunty Serene for the dress!! ^^

AND big thank to everyone who makes this year's birthday a special one~

Recent photos: \(^o^)/

Thank you, Aunty Serene!! ^^

Pretty Hamidah & Amalia!

Thanks, guys and gals, for such a memorable experience! ^^

2009-10-18T06:57:00.005+01:00

Here's my first post since 20th last month! ^^~

Exams are over and I was out daily since Wed afternoon! ;D
Let me break down to you what had been going on these few days of holiday..

Wed (afternoon) :

Went to Hamidah's house to borrow baju kurung for jalan raya on Friday. She lent me a blue one. ;D Thank you for that, Hamidah!

After that went home and on my laptop. Checked out lots of things that I didn't have a chance to do so during exam period.

Then went out with Clarissa and her mom to Parkway Parade. Cut my hair. I was SO mad at the hairdresser. But I kept quiet of course.. ('cos if he was angry, I may end up worse than before..) He didn't listen to me at all. He was enjoying himself, cutting whatever hairstyle he liked. God bless him! Hope he doesn't get in trouble with other customers..

Thu :

Went to help Clarissa's mom with the graduation ceremony of the K2 badge together with Clarissa and Esther @ Singapore Poly. We had lots of fun ourselves.

We became 'usherers' for the guests. Turn out that we just have to stand at the entrance and doing nothing. It was soooo cold inside the hall. Fortunately, we have jackets with us. Hmm.. but still, I was shivering..

Fri :

Had 'jalan raya' with my classmates. It was my 1st experience!! I was so excited!! :D Hahahaha..

There were 13 of us, including myself. Hamidah, Nadiah, Syahidah, Khalilah, Fatin, Pat Jon, Si Hui, Amalia, Amirul, Mahdhir, Adil and Saiful. It was fun.. but quite tiring. End at around 12.10? Reached home around 12.45..

Must thank Adil's parents for sending some of us back home.. :D Finally, thanks everyone for such a wonderful and memorable experience! ^^~

Sat :

Went out with Am and Home to Vivo City. Intended to watch phobia2 but they checked our id. It's NC16.. So didn't get to watch that.. T^T The film's from Thailand, you know! Eventually, we ended up watching 500 days of Summer. It was awesome. Another love story.

Am and Home bought a strawberry cake for me! They pretended that it was for Am but in the end, they gave it to me and sang me happy birthday song. I'm so touched!!

Thanks, Am and Home! ;D

Sun :

Clarissa and her parents celebrated my birthday (in advance) with me at The Central. I ordered katsu curry rice. >w< After the dinner, we walked around the place for a while. Aunty bought me a dress as a gift. Take a stroll for about 20 more minutes. Then we went home.

Hmm.. I think I'll just stop at Sunday first. Updating about my birthday soon! ;D

2009-09-20T03:27:00.005+01:00

I've been online rather often these few days. I don't know what am I trying to get from unwinding myself like this.. There're Physics, Chem and Bio mock test coming up. The rest of the subjects are just waiting for me to do the revision.

Okay.. Fine.. I'll go back to study now. It's so tiring but I know it's worth my time..

And oh, btw, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! ^^~

2009-09-17T13:18:00.008+01:00

Anatomy Case File Workshop 09/09/09 ^^

Wan Tian!! ^^~

The Twins!!

I was actually placing the skeleton's hand on Pam's head.. >_<

Before going home..

Today's Chemistry Mock test was difficult! I skipped a question and forgot to go back to do it!! I realised it only when time was up.. T^T Saddddd.. Just have to wait and see the result..

2009-09-09T14:48:00.002+01:00

Today is SUPPOSED to be a lucky day. Yet, this very day, 9th of September 2009, I have lost my handphone!!

As we were running late for the Anatomy Case File workshop at Republic Poly, some of us took taxi from Woodlands interchange to RP while Pam, Wan Tian, Dawn and I ran to the place. When we reached there, we were about 5 minutes late for the workshop.

Before going to the room, Wan Tian, Dawn and I went to the washroom. In a hurry, I put my handphone and handbag on the shelf above. Rushing out, I grabbed my handbag and quickly made a beeline to the 4th floor.

When I realised that my handphone was missing, I ran down to the 1st floor, hoping that, if I was lucky enough, it would still be there. However, it was too late. It was GONE!!

Bye bye to ALL my msges, songs, photos and notes inside!!

T______T

I can't say much as I am the one to blame. Being careless and all..

I just hope that that certain someone who found my hp would be kind enough to return it.. PLSSS..

If not, I guess I'll be the one to pay for a new handphone. There's no way that my parents are going to help me on that. I've lost it = I pay for it.

Okay.. Fast-forward to the workshop.

It was very enjoyable and exciting. The speakers are great and I just love all the models of the eyes and heart! They were COOL~

My blood pressure is lowwww.. On Monday, it was 110/62. Today, it was 95/72. How confusing!

After workshop I took bus168 back home with Saiful, Adil and Mahdhir. We alighted at TM to break fast @McDonald there. It was very nice chatting with them. =)

During the meal, I felt a bit feverish and once I told them, Adil said, "Oh, that's because you're surrounded by hot guys." THAT made me burst out laughing and I couldn't stop myself for at least a minute. It was so funny I almost tear. Lols.

I'm going back to Thailand tomorrow and I'm supposed to finish all the holiday homework by tonight. Wish me luck 'cos I still haven't started on English and A-math yet!! Ta-ta for now!! A bunch of work to be completed!!

2009-09-06T07:32:00.002+01:00

September Holiday is HERE!! >
However, looking at the pile of assignment that we have received, I can say that this is worse than normal school days!

Let's see... I'm half way through with E-Math. About 3/4 done with Bio. Finished 1/4 of Physics. While A-Math + English are still left untouched. And FYI, I haven't even started revising for any of the subjects!

Sec3 life freaks me out. I have no idea what sec4 is going to be like.. We shall see.. (if I live long enough to find out..)

2009-08-11T09:45:00.001+01:00

"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you wanted."

-taken from Pamela's blog.

2009-08-09T05:41:00.002+01:00

Sometimes I wondered...

Has life in Singapore ever slowed down? I felt dizzy so often lately when everything flew blurly past me. Everything went by so fast. For one moment, it was January. The next thing I knew, it was already August...

I couldn't imagine what I'll be doing at this time next year. I assume I'll be so busy, preparing for my O-level. Someone once told me that "if you are kind to yourself now, you are actually being cruel to yourself in the future". I guess it's true but I don't know just when can I put myself together to accept that. There are still so many I have yet to enjoy in my teen life. If you can live your life once, will you do what you must or will you follow your heart and do what you want?

I know it's kinda stubborn to be wondering about all these things... I think what I really need is just a space...

2009-07-31T12:59:00.002+01:00

I had NDP (BNSS) rehearsal in school today at 3pm. As my classes end at 12.30 today, I decided to go back home rather than waiting for 2 and a half hours in school.

As soon as I reached home, I took out my contact lens. I realised that they were so dry only during MT period. After that, I took my own sweet time to sort out my uniforms and other things. When the clock striked 2, I was shocked that it was already so late as I needed to reach school by 2.30pm.

That was when I started to rush. Worse came to the worst when I was putting on my contact lens again. I forced them inside but didn't expect them to fit at the first attempt. It was PAINFUL!

I don't know how others bear with it. Placing something unnatural on their eyes... Okay, I understand that it feels great seeing everything so clear in every angle but seriously speaking, it is either that I'm not an experienced wearer of contact lens or contact lens are difficult to deal with. It seems to be the 1st case.

Anyway, I shall not judge it when I have worn it for only two days. Maybe it's just me, being so unlucky.

2009-07-27T13:33:00.003+01:00

Wow~ It's so unbelievable how long I had not been blogging. Sooo many things have happened during this past few months that I may or may not recall.

Since the start of term 3, I feel that this is certainly a tiring and busy year with work piling up at my table. Some say that it'll be worse next year. I just wish for the best...

Today, there were A-Maths and Chemistry test in the morning and I was pretty stressed up; I almost cried. This partly have got to do with me, not handing in Chem TYS worksheet last week.

I got a scolding from Mdm Haliza. I tried to explain that at that point of time I have not buy the TYS yet, but she said she had already marked all the scripts and she would not mark another one.

When the Chem test starts, I lost my concentration quite completely. I was thinking why was I so irresponsible and all. So, in the end Mdm Haliza asked for the worksheet and she marked it for me.

I was so thankful but I think she is very disappointed with me. T_T

I feel so horrible...

There is NDP practice in school tomorrow. It's going to be difficult for sure. Blazing, hot sun. Wow. That is just tooooo great!

Oh, ya.. We've got a new mortal in the 'Angel and Mortal' game that 3D have been playing. It's fun!! ^^ But I have yet to recieve anything from my new Angel. I wonder who is it..

My previous Angel was Wan Tian. She played it so cool; I didn't know it was her til she told me so!

2009-05-08T12:21:00.002+01:00

Mid-year exam is OVER! Yeah!! =]

BUT! STOP RIGHT THERE!

The fun will end very, very soon!

We're getting back most of the papers on Tuesday and I can foresee that a shadow of sadness will fall upon most of us. Ok, maybe some of us but certainly me. I'm more or less not expecting a high marks in Bio. I know for myself that I did very badly.. It's just that I don't know how to answer the question. The information is just inside my head but I'm unable to apply it. So pathetic! T^T

Physics.. I think it's the easiest paper amongst the 3 sciences but I only managed to get A2. -_- Just a few marks to A1. Anyway, I've already done my best. I just have to make sure that I really understand what the question was trying to ask..

Headache now.. will b updaing again soon

2009-04-05T05:09:00.003+01:00

My laptop is down because of a virus. My tuition homework are piling up in two thick stacks. Mid-year exam is creeping closer without warning. I'm freaking out.

Things are just too great!

The greatest prize may often lie at the end of the thorniest path.

SMILE..SMILE..SMILE!!! =]

2009-03-29T06:22:00.003+01:00

I finally come back to blogging and this time with my blogskin changed. It really is a hectic year for me with many activities in school and undeniably huge amount of assignments and projects given. Maybe it's only me who think this way. I'm hopeless at time and stress management.

I want things to be done in my way. I want my mindmaps to be fantastic. I want to get straight 'A's. I want to do exceptionally well in my CCA. I want this and I want that. I'm really demanding with myself. AND what I have found out was that they ended up... all in a mess.

What should I do? I knew it right from the start that I'm just a girl with teeny-weeny brain, but still, I chose to be in Triple Science class. The L1R5 of 6 for the previous term made my jump for joy but what am I going to do if I can't sustain that?!

During MT period on Friday, Ms Rahma came down to monitor us for a while. I was reading my Thai Novel when Ms Rahma asked me why was I reading the novel in Thai and not in English. I replied that was because I'm taking Thai 'O' level. Then, she started questioning me with how good is my English, how much did I get for last term's English, Maths, A-maths and Science and do I think that I can get all A1 for my mid-year. Admittedly, I was a bit frighten at that time but now I start to worry. What if I can't get all A1 for mid-year?

I'm lost and really hope to be found.

มดหนึ่งตัวขนของที่หนักกว่ามันหลายสิบเท่า
น่าขันที่เราซึ่งอวดตัวว่าฉลาดกว่ามันกลับทำงานได้น้อยกว่ามัน

2009-02-17T07:50:00.002Z

It's Total Defend Day today. All the uniformed groups need to put on their uniforms, me included. We practiced food rationing during recess. It was so unfortunate for me to reach the table a bit late (due to changing into half uniform) as all the breads were GONE!

I'm so sorry my darlings, Dawn and Wan Tian. It's all my fault you two didn't get to eat enough. Wan Tian is so understanding. On the other hand, Dawn was complaining for the whole afternoon!

During CME lesson, the alarm rang and we all proceed to the field. It was terribly hot! Somehow, we were not killed there and were able to go to the hall after that.

Keeping quite was so difficult if you've got Mahdhir, Nabil and Ngee Hung sitting beside you in the hall. Mahdhir kept on talking to me and Mr.Yeo was looking towards our direction. When I stared down, Ngee Hung said that I'm emo-ing. Nabil do nothing, but I found that his laughters kind of irritate me a bit. I turned to face Wenfeng and I know we agree that the people beside us are really.. um.. how should I put this... restless!

As usual, there are inexhaustible list of homeworks I'm suppose to complete. So bye-bye for now! ^^

หินแกร่งทุกก้อนเกิดมาจากดินร่วนอ่อน ความอดทนมีแต่ทำให้เราแกร่งขึ้น

2009-02-15T14:15:00.001Z

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY, PAT JON!!

Hahas.. Today Am, Hamidah and me went to give Pat Jon his birthday present at his house! How we know his address? It's a secret!

We meet up @ Bedok Inter. The time was suppose to be 2.30 but I was late for almost 10 minutes! I'm real sorry. After that we take bus and take some wrong ways, searching for his house. When we found it, Am closed the peep-hole while Hamidah knocked on the door. His dad slowly opened the door and Pat Jon stood beside him. Then he was like, "Oh, hi."

Weren't he suppose to be surprise?! I expect more than a "Oh, hi.", you know? Lols. Anyway, he walked the three of us to the bus stop and he said he wanna go to Mc. So, away we went. Annie and other two guys, which I seriously have no idea who are they, were there. They were studying. So hard-working!! Then we sit at the table beside them and chatted about so many stuffs while the hard-working people were doing their works.

After we ate, we went to a nearby playground and played 'heart attack'. It's superly fun! I was so out of my mind or what is commomly known as 'blur'. So I was hit several times!! Pat Jon took my picture without permission so the fight start. I was running around like mad, trying to snatch his handphone. Hahas..

Not long after that, he've got a call from his dad(?) and it's time for the birthday boy to go home. We walked all the way home with him along an abandon pathway. The sun was extremly hot, yet we chatted till we forget the burning effects that were all on our skins.

I took 87 home with Hamidah while Am took the bus back to Bedok Inter. Thanks, you three, for a really wonderful day. I hope we can go out together again.

I'm so not looking forward to tomorrow. Why? Because I haven't touch any single piece of my homework! I'm better go by now! Cya around. ^^

2009-02-05T07:49:00.002Z

As I had said earlier on, my normally 6-7 hours of sleep are slowly taken away from me since I started on Sec3. It's getting worse. Last night I slept only for about 2 hours. Reasons? Couldn't be anything else but trying to finish my homeworks and study for tests.

Should I blame MOE for stressing the pure sciences students too much? Don't they realise that it's called 'child abuse' to give students so many and many and many assignments? I'm turning from a panda to a zombie now. If the dark circles around my eyes get any worse, I will sue MOE!! LOLS. Just kidding..

So, you get it now, right? About how restless I am. Please understand and please don't get angry with me if I happen to fall asleep while talking to you. Not that you are boring or anything but I just can't take it any longer.

It's time for me to go now.. A thick stack of my tuition worksheets are waiting for me. I hope I can open my eyes while walking to school tomorrow...

2009-01-30T12:35:00.000Z

Ooppz! I didn't blog for quite some time.. >o<

The fact that I went back to Thailand during CNY did make my brain cells function slower. I had a shock of my life yesterday when Mdm.Sultanah said that she's giving us a vocab test. Seriously speaking, it's worse than the start of WW3! Why? Because I had never ever touch the vocab list since I've gotten it. Eventually, I passed with the score of 6/10. I promise this is going to be the first and last time I get such scores.

I thought there is 24 hours per day... I was WRONG! It felt like I've got less and less time to do things and more importantly to sleep. Before I realised it, tomorrow is Saturday and I haven't even started on my minimum-500-words-essay! T^T Oh, my! Life is getting crazier and crazier each passing day.

We had chemistry test today. I don't think I'll do very well as I wrote down some confirmed-wrong answer. It's really a big jump from lower sec to upper sec, especially in science and English.

I talked to Mdm.Haliza today inside the general office. She said that she has a very high hopes for 3D. So, 3D people, we must do well, ok?

G2g now.. Cya! ^^

2009-01-20T08:31:00.001Z

ปฎิทินตั้งโต๊ะ ปี 52 4,000 JAM///เข็มกลัด ลาย JLS 3,000 JAM

I want these two!! But I couldn't get it because of the SUPER duper slow internet! Apparently, so many people are exchanging for these two.. So, sadly I must say, there are no more left.

One choice left for me:
Wait for next year~

(Those who does not know what I was talking about, read my previous post)

We have physics test today and I can fore-see that I won't do so well. First of all, I studied the topic in the morning. Reason? 'Cos today's Wan Tian's birthday!

Clarissa and I spent time from 9.30 till midnight last night to make her a present. At that point in time, I was so sleepy but yet determine to complete my geography homework. As it turns out, I fell asleep with pencil and ruler in my hands! It's so amazing that I'm that tired to sleep on the spot!

We still have biology test tomorrow~ Study never ends! Wish me luck, people!

2009-01-19T08:14:00.006Z

I'm waiting impatiently for Jam Exchanging on Jamsai's webpage!

~*Jamsai means cheerful in Thai*~

Let me explain here.. Jamsai is the name of a very popular teenage-love-novel publisher in Thailand. Then, there's this imaginary money called 'Jam'. Whenever you visit the web's forum and post, you'll recieve 3 Jams. When you post a story, you'll recieve 10 Jams. So on and so forth. You need to save up the so-called money for exchanging at the beginning of the year.

So, this is it!! Once a year! After this, the Jam will be re-set to zero again~ It's now or never! I'm so over-excited. I'll post again on what I exchange, ok? ><

^
^
^
Sample: One of Jamsai's Book Cover

It's unexceptionally cute, I know!! LOLS. Cya later. I'm come back and post again!

2009-01-16T08:57:00.002Z

I've been sick since Wednesday. Give the credit to Clarissa!! I just could not understand why she is all well by now but I don't! It's totally unfair.. Well, life is suppose to be this way, I guess. ALWAYS unfair.

We've got PE in the morning. We suppose to practice on softball but by the time we reach the field, it's already the end of the period. So.. no practice for today! That's such a good news 'cos I don't want to run! ><

We also took our chemistry test today. I hope that I'll do okay~ I'm so hopeless in chemistry! Anyway, Mdm.Haliza seems very nice when we asked her some questions at the end of the lesson. She's so different during lesson and after lesson. Most of the time, she'll pick someone to answer her questions by the date.So I need to watch out if the date is 9th.. 'cos that's my reg. no. O_o

G2g now. Lazy is the reson~ LOLS. Cya on the next entry.

P.S. No photo today, Am.. I can't find my usb!

2009-01-13T13:04:00.002Z

I was just thinking about how to start off with a different phrase rather than 'Today's blah blah blah~' and I couldn't come any nearer to acceptable conclusion.. So, I'll just begin as usual.

I could had died of boredom today. Well, matter-of-factly, the only subject that could keep me fully awake was Geography. I love Mrs.Fong! Her lesson could never be boring! Umm, as well as Ms.Faizah's (Partly because of her dramatic actions. LOLS).

During English lesson this morning, Ms.Sultanah talked to us about EL Ignite! Project. Most likely, we'll be doing broadcasting! It's gonna be so COOL!~ First time in my life to do such thing!

The bad news is... we have to do journal for each meeting! I swear that the journal and I are definitely not a close friend. I totally have no idea on what to write when we are required to complete during TLLM Ignite! last year. Still, we need to do it this year also. T^T

After school I attended the GB practice session for CCA open house. As it was raining, we used level 1 study area as the venue. There are so many people walking pass by and I hate all those attentions! Worse, Pat Jon looked down on me. ('Cos he was standing at level 2 study area! Not the other definition of 'look down'. Hahahas.) I can hardly concentrate 'cos he was kind of laughing at me! It's real IRRITATING!~

'Tired and sleepy' are just the right words to describe me right now. Imagine yourself having to march on the spot, stepping on the drain, which made it even more difficult to balance yourself and lifting your legs till 90 degrees for like 45 minutes or so. I'm telling you now, it's very tiring. T^T Pity me for having this practice again tomorrow.

Lastly, I'm SO going to announce this!! My senior, P'Top, have got 7 distinction for his O level!! Congratulations!! Wow~ Then you are going to Australia after this! Such a bright future. I wish you all the best in everything you do and most importantly take care!

P.S. Thanks for everything. Really. You're the nicest senior ever exist on Earth!
P.S.2 Thanks again for the textbooks!! ^^
P.S.3 Tuition me for my Sciences and Maths, can? LOLS
P.S.4 I'm gonna follow your foot step!! (If I can~)
P.S.5 Don't forget me hor!

2009-01-10T15:47:00.000Z

Today's one of the tiring days~ Girls' Brigrade..Drill.. and stuffs. Yet, I think I'm still fine. Well, hope I can stay this way thoughout this whole challenging year.

I started off the day by going to school. It's all the same routine, every week. Anyway, it's a bit different today as we're preparing for the CCA open house next week. According to Pamela and all the senior girls, we'll be doing synchronised drill with no timing given. They'll only say 'up' and that's all it gonna be. Wait and see on the day itself! ^^ During the break, I saw Pat Jon and Wen Feng at level 1 study area. I thought I wouldn't see them 'cos they came since 7+ and are doing something about Sec1, which I honestly can't remember.

After that I went to Techview with Hui Ying to take my lunch.. I ate A LOT! Of course I wouldn't do that if Mr.Pang haven't take the height and weight..BUT he did! So, here's the time to enjoy ur food. Please remind me to slim down during June Holiday!! LOLS

Around 2pm I went off to my tuition centre in Bugis. Here's the thing: I've got the English tuition scholarship!! Hahahas~ That means I only need to pay 10% of the course fee, which is about $200 for this whole year! It was so cool!~ I need to attend lesson every Sat afternoon. Each session will last for 2 hours and a half. I really wish that I won't be so exhausted after like..say..3 months. Muahaha~

Then there's this thing about the lift in my block. When I pressed 'close', it just refused to do so.. I don't know what to do next, so I just used the staircases. After I reached the 6th storey, I saw that it could work again. Without hesitation, I went inside and guess what that irritating lift done to me.. IT BROUGHT ME DOWN TO THE 1ST FLOOR!! Oh, for crying out loud, I need to walk up again. It was such a GREAT exercise! I swear if it happen, I've gotta do something.

But the problem is.. I don't know what to do!

Ok, right, it's getting late and I gotta go now. Will this update satisfy you, Am?? :p

2009-01-02T06:55:00.002Z

Helloooo~! After not blogging for quite a while, I'm back! ^^ Today is the first day of school and we get to know stuffs about our new class as well as the up-coming sec3 camp.

First of all, I'm very happy about my class's form teacher, Ms.Faizah, and the co-form, Ms.Lenny. They're really funny and most of all, they will be teaching us Physics and Biology.

Here come the sad thing, some of my friends can't go for sec3 camp as they need to participate in the sec1 camp. Anyway, I'll try my best to enjoy myself over at the camp. T^T

Erm.. I think I'll just go now to get some sleep. I slept at 1 o'clock last night because of a book. See you again when I feel like updating! >w<

2008-12-18T05:46:00.002Z

Hey, Thailand have got a new PM, Abhisit! AND more importantly, he's the one I have always cheer for as a new-blooded PM. Here's his interview with the CNN:

Abhisit GO GO! I support you!!! ^^

2008-12-05T14:56:00.007Z

I'm blogging today, as promise.

Today's a special day for the Thais as it is our King's birthday~ so every 5th of December is a Father's Day here in Thailand. Well, this is because our king is comparable to the father of all the Thais. ^^ I'm proud that I'm a Thai!

Unfortunately, our King fell ill recently. I really hope that he'll get well soon. He's the only one who can unify Thailand. The country needs him. The country loves him. LONG LIVE THE KING!~

As for my own dad, I made him a card. I've taken the picture of the card but I'll upload it soon. Definitely not today.. I'm too lazy~ -_-

Well, bye-bye for now. I've got to get things done.

>Lastly.. an Eng translatation of the song A Present From Clod of Earth< >..The Song for our Father<

We all look like a clod of earth,
Fragile, valueless, and meaningless
We are weak like mud flowing along the path
After water running dry, it becomes drought

There is only a power that can hold,
And make us stronger
The power to gather many people together to be a powerful strength,
That can make a large piece land from each single clod of earth

We all know how much our Father is exhausted
He has never stopped working hard
Since he knows he’s only the power of the land,
To help us continue living our lives as appropriate

If we want to give our Father a present,
Could we all get together?
Being the same piece of land so as to make our Father happy
Without fatigue for any longer

Doing good things to make our Father happy
Without fatigue as he used to get in the past

2008-12-04T07:19:00.006Z

I'm back from Nakhon-na-yok!! ^^ My family went there for holiday~ The place is wonderful! Actually, when we were there we didn't do that much activities 'cause my dad wanted to rest. We almost went rafting, though, but end up going to the newly built dam instead.

Here are a few pictures:

The Dam~

Scenery around..

Strong wind~ & there're floodplains down there..

Lastly, my little bro & I~

Tomorrow is Father's day here in Thailand.. so I'll update my blog again tomorrow. See you then! ^^~

2008-11-23T09:18:00.002Z

> < huh?? Don't look at me like that! I felt guilty! My last entry was decades ago~ and.. and.. and.. I have no good reasons for that!~

Call me 'crazy' if you wish. These days I just sat around in my own room and wrote Thai Love Novel~ Haha.. I know that novel isn't my things but I dream about being a writer since I was 4. Now, the biggest teenage novel publisher (Jamsai/แจ่มใส!!) is out in the market, LOOKING FOR YOUNG TALENTS!! How can I resist the feeling inside that asked me to do something??

Okay.. I'm being too emotional here. It's funny, I know. One thing that you may notice is that.. I'm crazier and lazier than ever! Let me remind you once again, it's HOLIDAY! When the new term starts, I don't think I can enjoy myself like this. Therefore, now is the best time to do so!

I'll try to keep my blog up-to-date! ^^ Bye~~

2008-11-15T08:17:00.005Z

"Sorry, there is not acknowledgement from your requested number. ไม่มีสัญญาณตอบรับจากหมายเลขที่ท่านเรียกค่ะ"

Muahahaha~ Maybe that's what I'm going to reply you if you ask me something now. I'm not in the right state to do anything right now. Don't blame me for this, Thailand is the reason why I felt so laid back. (Lazy might be the word!! > <) Anyway, I'm happy to be home.

Once again, you may found that this is a dead blog. I agree. -_-;; I think I'll just catch up later.

This few days I didn't feel like going out because if I do, I need to dress either in black or white. We're mourning over the King's elder sister's death.

"ถึงเวลาส่งนางฟ้ากลับสวรรค์
ที่แห่งนั้นงามดังฝันคู่ควรเทพธิดา
สู่สวรรค์ สู่ยังวิมานที่ปลายขอบฟ้า
ก้มกราบอำลา ด้วยน้ำตาอาลัย

ท่านลงมาจากบนฟ้าจากสวรรค์
เติมความฝัน ต่อชีวิตผู้คนทั้งใกล้ไกล
สุดเหนื่อยล้า อุทิศชีวา เพื่อคนที่ยากไร้
เป็นภาพในใจ ไม่ลืมทุกอย่างที่ท่านทำ

จากวันนี้ กลับสู่ฟ้าดังเดิม
และคงไม่มีภาพเดิม ที่เคยได้เห็นได้จำ
ไม่มีอีกแล้ว นางฟ้าองค์เดิม ท่องดินและถิ่นน้ำ
แต่ภาพทรงจำ ไม่มีวันเลือนลบหายไป

ถึงเวลาส่งนางฟ้ากลับสวรรค์
ที่แห่งนั้น งามดังฝันและดูสุดแสนไกล
ยามคิดถึง ให้คิดทำดี ร่วมมีร่วมจุดหมาย
นางฟ้าไกลไกล ท่านคงยังอยู่ข้างข้างเรา

นางฟ้าองค์เดิม ท่านคงยังอยู่ข้างข้างเรา"

2008-11-05T09:13:00.000Z

I'm going back tomorrow!! Hip..hip Hooray~~!! Today, I would like to write about my experience of yesterday's seminar.

Yesterday, I attended Young Leaders Day 2008 at Ngee Ann Poly. It really was an amazing experience for me! We listened to each speaker and the one who inspired me the most is Mr.Nick Vujicic. He was born without arms and legs; yet he had overcome many obstacles and challenges which many of us who are physically normal dare not face.

He said, "There is no dream that is too high for you to reach. I'm achieving my dreams. I'm reaching my goals. And if a man without arms and legs can do it, so can you."

"If even I, a man with no arms and no legs, can achieve what I want to achieve, what's stopping you?"

"When you realised what you can achieve in life but you think you can't afford to go on, what you need to understand is that you can't afford to give up. NEVER EVER GIVE UP."

"When you fall, you have a choice.. to get up or give up."

I can't promise that I'll completely stop complaining about my life, but I can promise that I'm not going to give up. Here's his website: Attitude is Altitude Do visit it and you'll realise how lucky you are~

2008-10-30T07:18:00.002Z

Hello, people! Haha.. Admittedly, I haven't been blogging for quite some time already. Lots of things are going on these days and I'm busy catching up with the complicated concepts we learn during bridging lessons.

However, even how tired I was, the thought of going back home always make me feel better. Another 7 days and I'll be in Thailand! How wonderful! After all this struggling, I can't believe that I finally going home! Home sweet home. Oh, gosh, I miss my family so much. More than anything, my hard work paid off at last. I get 1st in the level. > <~~~

Anyway, I think I need to get back to my research now. Happy holiday, everyone! ^^

2008-10-20T13:28:00.002+01:00

Yesterday was my birthday. I need to thank several people who make it a very special day for me. ^^

1. Clarissa :
thanks for going Escape & WWW with me. It's really fun! Also for the wonderful dinner and lovely jelly cake! I love you!!! <333

2. Pat Jon, Amirul, Nadiah & Amalia :
thanks for this cute little dog and the video! I love it! =)

3. WanTian :
Haha. You got it right! Pink is my favourite colour. >w<

4. Dawn :
Thanks a lot! It's so gorgeous! =)

5. Esther :
Yay! I'm someone special. LOLS Thanks a million!

Thanks a lot!! You guys & gals make a big different for me this year! =) I really appreciate everything that you all have done for me. I got to go for now. (I'll be back tomorrow to tell you my result! > <)

2008-10-17T04:34:00.003+01:00

The alarm clock screamed its alerting sound right into my ears 7 o' clock this morning. I put it off, of course, but minutes later my handphone did the same. As you can see, I have no choice but to get off the bed and start on LEAD's assignments. Today's E-learning day and there's no school. Some may say that it's such a pleasure but I disagree. I prefer schooling over this troublesome E-learning.

The reason why I dislike E-learning is because I tried several times to re-take the Eng Vocab Test but the system did't record my new score. Instead it just says I get 29/40.. how pathetic. (The passing mark is 30.) Anyway, I've got to go now. I need to get ready for my tution centre's tea party. It's going to be fun!! > <

P.S. I changed my blogskin because the last one collapsed!

2008-10-13T15:19:00.002+01:00

We've gotten back our EOY result today. Actually, it's a checking of exam scripts that make us know our marks. I'll just list my overall here. ( Maybe if I have a mood to explain them one by one, then I may come back and edit. However, I doubt that I'll. )

English: 69/110
Mathematics: 93/100
Physics: 37/40
Bio: 36.5/40
Chem: 37/40
History: 89/100
Lit: 46/50

I hope that I do well enough.. TT~ I really don't want to let my mom & grandma down.

Btw, i scored higher in Maths than HK this time round!! It's so UNBELIEVABLE!!

2008-10-12T16:05:00.002+01:00

I took this test just a few minutes ago. I don't know whether I'm really is but, anyway, I'll just put it here. =)

Tag me after viewing this, ok? Thanks a million!

EOY Exam's OVER!!!

2008-10-11T15:06:00.002+01:00

Woooop! I'm backkkkkkkk! Now with EOY Exam over, I'm able to relax a little. For this few days, I've been going out quite a lot.

Thursday: Helping out in Clarissa's mom's centre. All children are soooo CUTE! Especially Jia Cin. She's so nice to me and asked me to read storybooks one after another. > < I feel like going back to help out again! Really.. ^^

Friday: Went swimming with Clarissa, resulting in getting much darker which I considered deserving as we were out there from 2 to 4 under a very hot sun. TT

Today: Went to library to return all the overdue books. Oh, gosh, I was shocked when I saw the bill. I'm not going to mention the price here, of course. But you can ask me, personally.

As for monday, we are getting back our exam scripts for checking. I hope I do well in every single one of them. I really want to. For one thing, if I don't get what I had expected, I'll try my best not to cry. After all, I had already put in my best..

Good luck, everyone! Monday's gonna be a tough day for all of us!

Eng Paper1's over!

2008-09-26T16:56:00.002+01:00

A heavy downpour indeed this morning. I can't believe that I woke up far too late from what I had expected. Anyway, I managed to reach school 15 minutes before the bell.

Today, the Eng Paper 1 was just over. I'm so relieved. I mean, at least I can rest for now. ( Which couldn't mean anything else but 'NOW' only ) Tomorrow I have to continue with my revision for other subjects, I guess. -_- ~~~

As usual, I went to Clarissa's house again. We were so bored that we kept on calling others, which includes QK, WT, Brendan, Pat Jon and Esther. We talked non-stop until my hand phone had no battery left, not even a single percent. Anyway, that's why I went home, to charge my phone. > <

After dinner I conferenced with Amalia and Pat Jon. It was really nice talking to them and I hope that we are going to the same class next year!

Don't call me childish or anything but recently I had been watching Disney movies. I wish I would never grow up. Disney is so charming, wonderful and magical. The saddest part is that.. it's unrealistic. If miracle does exist, please take me home now. I miss my mom soooo much! TT~

P.S. Just now I talked to CK and she swore she's going to kill me! Somebody, please help!!!

EOY Exam's coming!!

2008-09-12T14:30:00.002+01:00

That was all I could think of now. EOY's around the corner yet little did I start revising. Too many works, too little time. There is still a music project to complete. There are many exercise books to be done. It's time for me to wake up and start the serious revision, if I don't want to let my results worsen. ทุกคนช่วย motivate me please!

I'll not be around to update my blog for quite some time due to the revision. Please understand =)

Back to school!!

2008-09-09T11:58:00.002+01:00

This is the 2nd day of term 4 and, as I expected, we already recieved quite a huge bunch of homework. Don't give me that puzzled look when reading my blog because by the order of Ms.Lim, I should use correct English in my blog. So, from now onwards, no short forms and I need to try my best to use correct tenses and all that.

Let me talk about term 4. =) Yesterday we got back our Maths test. This time round I'm very sastisfied with my result. I scored 47/50. I studied very hard for this test and eventually I hit my goal in getting 90% and above. I guess I have to study even harder for EOY exam. I know it will not be as easy as any of the tests and CEs but it worth putting effort in. A few weeks to exam and that's it. I believe that for all the effort you put in, it will reflect on your result. For now, I don't need to rank 1st in standard. I just need to do my best. ^^

Today we exchanged classrooms with Sec 4E for the reason that one of them injured their leg(s) and is not able to climb up the stairs to the 3rd floor. We should thanks them for that because they gave us a chance to exercise. LOLS.

Oh, I forgot something. I scored distinction for the ICAS Australian Maths assesment. Once I registered the news, I was so glad that I almost cry. My maths is not that good as some people like HK but I managed to get distinction.. I really owe this to Mrs.Ong. Without her, I think I'll not be able to stand where I am now. The saddest part is that she's retiring this year. I hope she can still be contactable..

History lesson today was very difficult as we have to write an essay which cost us 18 marks. This essay writing will be part B for our history EOY paper. In my opinion, if you missed out one of these essay questions, you can actually say good bye to your A1. T^T Anyway, eventhough it was a difficult one, it is still a must for everyone of us. Therefore, once again, I'm trying my best on this. =)

It rained again!

2008-09-02T14:56:00.003+01:00

I hate rainy season. I kno it's romantic and all, provided u hav someone by ur side watching the pouring rain, but it's jus a total loneliness for someone like me. How pathetic.. - -

I jus wash my hair in the morning & now I gotta do it again, thanks to those endless huge drops of water! Anyway, I guess I said too much already. It wasn't that bad actually. I'm jus exaggerating things.

EOY exam's coming and I can feel panic ran all over me. I'm afraid that I can't do very well. I am doing my best to rank 1st in the standard again. I'm gonna make my family proud. I promised myself.. I am NEVER ever gonna give up!!~

Teachers' Day & Wild Wild Wet

2008-08-31T13:18:00.002+01:00

Ytd the GB went to Wild Wild Wet.. It was so fun! We went around and played lots of things. I love it! > < We reached there since abt 9.30.. then play till around 12+. Of cos.. I'm much darker. I didn't put on sun block as I can't locate them. But anyway, it doesn't really matter. Who on Earth will care??

Friday was Teachers' Day celebration and ACES day.The concert was quite nice, esp the dance part. It was so cool. I wish i can dance like that! LOLS.. Then CK & I go around and giv teachers their presents. They all look very happy.

Sure enough, I won't disappoint them for the time & effort they put on me was so great. Some of them actually agreed to come back during the holiday to answer our doubts. That's why Thai ppl respect the teachers so much. They're the one who are behind each person's succeed. They deserve that great honors. I jus can't understand why some ppl speak to teacher rudely & disrepect them.. I jus hope that they'll realise someday that they shouldn't bahave in such a way~

Tue-Sat hav to go to sch.. for remedials. This one-week holiday shouldn't b called 'holiday' at all.. it should be remedials days instead~ Hahahaz.. > <

>_< ~ ! * #

2008-08-28T10:33:00.003+01:00

I must say "gd job" to the morning rain.. cos it made me almost overslept! Lols.. anyway, thanks goodness that my alarm funtioned, I'm able to got up on time~

The day went on as usual despite the pouring rain. During PE, we practiced for the ACES's day tmr. Some of the steps are so difficult. I can hardly follow them. I'll jus try my best tmr... -__-

After sch went to do the library duty wif WanTian, Pat & Joey. I made new friend today. Her name is Kendra from 2A. She's so nice and helpful indeed.

Btw, when WanTian, Kendra & I went downstair to put sth on the notice board, we met Ms.Lin~ She ask us to call some male councilors to come & help her carry the plants. At 1st I try to call Amirul but he didn't pick up.. so I called Amalia instead. But GUESS WHAT?? When they say they r coming alr.. I jus cant find Ms.Lin! -___- ~ So I called her to inform her on that.

Some time later, I realise I shouldn't help her.. cos they almost kill me! Pushing the trolley too fast, one of the plants fell down & I'm injured!! I need money for hospital fees, you know? Hahahas.. I'm jus kidding!! No one is injured. =p

The library duty was so fun~ After exam I'll go back and help in the library again! ^^

Tmr's teachers' day! g2g to prepare sth for my beloved teachers!! > <

Nt happy wif results T^T

2008-08-27T13:56:00.002+01:00

Today we gt back our report books. I'm very disappointed wif my Sci. I gt only 82.6; last term I gt 93. Overall is so-so. 6 A1s and a A2 for Eng. L1R5 = 7... I'm glad that I gt A2 for Eng but if I did a little bit better, I can get 7 A1s!! I miss that chance! T^T So sad~

Then today also gt back Sci CE. I gt 57/60, so did Nabil. I win Pat Jon's bet alr! Now he gotta buy me an exercise book. Hehehe..

After sch, CK & Clarissa keep saying the same thing over & over again! And.. furthermore, they talk very loudly ah~~ > < I afraid someone heard it. But nvm, I think everybody knows it anyway. -_____- ~~

Remark:

1.) I must rank 1st in the level!!!!!!!!!
2.) I now gd friend wif CK ** LOLS

Finally, it's settled.. (mayb) = =

2008-08-25T14:21:00.003+01:00

Today 3 teachers didn't come so we hav time to revise for history. QK and Brendran went crazy during Eng! They keep sticking ppl's backs with tape which hav words like 'Tian You' and all.. Wan Tian suffered the most. I warn u 1st ah, dun try to test me.. cos i'll surely tear the thing into pieces if it found itself on my back! Lols..

Then, the History CE today was a killer! I finish it in last minute. It's super duper difficult. I memorised the whole thing abt Maria Riot. Luckily, it did come out. The abt the SBQ, I think I gt the last question wrong.. cos I didn't link back to the correct contexual knowledge. Poor me.. Jus hope I can still rank 1st. T^T QK, dun overtake me ah~~

Today, things finally gt settled.. or seem to b anyway. I'm happier. FINALLY, I'm happier.. OR seem to b anyway, jus like all that things~~

Rainy Sunday

2008-08-24T15:02:00.002+01:00

I didn't post for so long. So many things happened. For the 1st time in years, I didn't want to go to sch. I dun want to hide it anymore. Today, I'm gonna say it out.

I dun kno abt this confrontation thingy but did anybody care how would I feel? What are this things all abt? Isn't it bad enough that everybody seems to kno my secret? Isn't it bad enough that my trusted friends are the ones who say it out? Isn't it bad enough that I hav to worry abt all this things while continue to work hard for tests & CE? Isn't all this bad enough? So.. why make it worse??

Tmr gt history test. Dun think I can do well. Abt tmr confrontation, I wanted to run away at 1st but changed my mind. The best way to solved problems is to face it. Cross ur fingers for me. Let's hope this war ended.

Confused..

2008-08-19T15:11:00.002+01:00

I'm so tired.. lots of things to think abt

Today we get to kno our hist & eng overall. I'm very happy for Eng.. cos I jus never thought I'll ever get A2! But for Hist.. a bit unhappy ah.. cos I get only 94 & QK get 90.2!! He's gonna overtake me alr! Hahahas.. jus kidding! Actually quite happy abt it la~ At least got 1st in class. - - but as many of us kno.. ppl can win u anytime if u dun study hard enough. Ya.. so must study hard for next wk's CE & of cos.. for the final exam.

I dun kno how to describe my feeling now. It's so complicated. Mayb I'm confused. What's this spreading-my-secret thing all abt?? I mean, come on.. it's abt 2 more months then we hav to go diff classes alr. How can I bring with me gd memories if things are still the way they r now? I jus feel so lost.. So confused..

If this is some sort of computer games,
the only thing I wanna do now
is to hit the 'Esc' button...

Home Econ Practical tmr! =(

2008-08-17T07:41:00.002+01:00

I must admit.. Home Econ's not as fun as I imagined earlier on. Mind u, I'm not the type who get bored easily but this time round.. it really is boring with all the nagging. =( Sometimes.. she jus scold at us for nth. I've no idea wat msg she's trying to give us. Frankly, I totally dun understand.

My CA2 for Home Econ won't be so well. AND for crying out loud, I think I may get B3.. the all-time low!! [not counting English]

Tmr got this practical thingy and we suppose to bring our own ingredients. Then, I jus realise.. how on earth am I gonna buy those things if she keep our file? All the recipes are inside! If things like this continue.. I guess I'll go mad some day ~

Btw, did anybody kno wat am i suppose to do?!

วันศุกร์..คุยกับ แพทจอร์น มา..
เขาก็เล่าให้ฟังว่า "ยู-โน-ฮู อ่ะ..
บอกมาว่า.. เขาจะ อว้อย เพชรได้ยังไง
ในเมื่อ เพชรกับเขา ไม่ได้สนิทกันขนาดนั้นซะหน่อย"
พอได้ยินแล้วจุกเลย.. เจ็บค่อดๆ
ทำไมเพชรถึงได้ชอบเขามากขนาดนี้นะ..
โดนอย่างงี้ตั้งหลายรอบแล้วยังไม่รู้จักจำอีก ~
แค่เพื่อนหักหลังยังไม่พอใช่มั้ยเนี่ย..
พระเจ้าไปอยู่ไหน ~~ ทำไมไม่สนใจชีวิตชั้นบ้างเล้ยยย

moaning day

2008-08-13T14:55:00.003+01:00

Ya.. moaning day ~ Today we get to see our maths result [ so far from the 1st term till now ] A bit disappointed. I got 92, A1. Rank 2 [ for Maths in class ] If I don't do well in this wk10 test and final exam... I can surely say good bye to Rank 2. T____T~ [ HK got so high.. 97.. I can't catch up with him alr ah.. T^T ]

Then, we get to kno our Eng CE marks also. Another 1 mark and I get B4~ If I don't do anything with my Eng... I must admit... I don't think I can pass the final exam ~

Lots of things to worry abt~

Reminders for myself:
- Revise more!! It's jus another 4 wks to the most important exam in this year!!
- Stop asking 'why' things dun go the way we planned
- Stop caring too much abt her.. cos it won't do me any good
- Stop thinking too much abt him!!

The heart-broken truth..

2008-08-12T11:57:00.002+01:00

Oh.. wat wrong wif me?? I kno it's jus this small little thing but i jus can't get over it... at least for now. I feel so lost...

Who to turn to? Who to trust? .. I'm so afraid. I afraid that I'll make the same mistake again. I've hurt enough. I dun want to feel this kind of pain again. I think I should b ok.. only if that person wasn't my friend. Only if I didn't trust her. Only if I keep my mouth shut.. Mayb things wouldn't turned out this way.

But anyway, there's nth I can do now. Life goes on, I suppose. So should I. But somewhere in my secret heart.. there'll always b a locked box of this memory. I'll forgive.. but I'll never forget.

I'm crying, deep inside. I thought friends will never ever betray each others. I thought friends are the ones who care abt u. I thought friends love u. But.. u hav proven that I'm absolutely wrong. Now, I realised that.. there actually is the kind of friend like 'you' who is completely opposite from my idea of friend.

Dun pretend to b my friend. I hate fakers. I didn't get stupid bcos the things u tell other ppl.. but i feel disappointed for the fact that YOU tell other ppl my secrets.

I kno i'll get over it. It's jus the matter of time. Smile..smile..smile! =)

{As you go through life, u'll see..
there's so much that we..
don't understand..
But the only thing we know..
is things don't always go..
the way we planned..}

Simple Saturday ~

2008-08-09T16:34:00.002+01:00

Happy S'pore 43rd Birthday!! Today, I woke up earlier than I expect. Not having GB today, it's real boring to jus stay at home and study. [maths & lit.]

On the other hand, I got to spend time reading the library book. I only managed to finish 1 book today, which is 'GATHERING BLUE'. This is a companion to 'THE GIVER'.

The story is very touching. I felt sorry for Kira, the main character, who suddenly become an orphan and with her twisted leg.. she jus feel lost. However, she choose to stand up for herself and... I think I tell u too much alr =x lols..

What I can say is.. this is a must-read!! Go buy one or borrow from the library. You won't regret it!

P.S. like my blog skin?? =)

กรี๊ดดดดดดดดดดดดดดด!! เขาตอบข้อความมาแล้ว!! > <
ใช่แล้ว! ฟังไม่ผิดหรอก! เขาตอบมาแล้วจริงๆ!
ดีใจที่สุดเลย.. ^^
ฉันจะร้องๆให้ดังๆ..ก็ฉันมันดีใจ..
ที่เธอมาบอกกัน.. อยากจะตะโกนมันออกไป!! ~

1 more day to.. S'pore's BD!

2008-08-08T15:01:00.002+01:00

Today, we celebrated National Day in sch. I reached sch at 6.40.. as our seniors required. Then at 6.55 we assembled outside the office. I rmb that i was very nervous and afraid i'll make a mistake. We stand there until around 7.20 then the whole thing started!!

1st.. the NCC, followed by NPCC, SJAB, BB and of cos.. GB!! ^^ My heart was beating so fast that I afraid it'll stop working [ haha. exaggerating again! ] But all went well! Mr Goh also said we did a great job! I'm so happy! > < Anyway, เพื่อนๆที่แสนดีทั้งหลายไม่ได้ถ่ายรูป 'เขา' ให้เลย.. ย้ำแล้วย้ำอีกก็ยังลืมอีก น่าน้อยใจที่สุด T^T

After the parade I went backstage to find Patricia.. cos she bring a red tee for me. Then, being unlucky as usual, she left her bag in music room and I hav no choice but to go to the hall w/o changing. > <

There were a choir performance and the inter-house thingy [ ssry.. i cant rmb the exact name >/\< ] All were nice.. and Fire got 1st. 2nd=Tidal, 3rd= Solar and 4th=Amazon. After everything.. i go change then join others in class for music discussion.

Finally, we decided to go Vivo & Changi Airport on Mon!! Cant wait! Monday's Adventerers : Patricia, Clarissa, WanTian, Joey, XinLin, Dawn, Brendan, QK and... of cos, Me!

Once our decision was made, we then went to McDonald's to eat. [ we= Clarissa, Patricia and I ] I book the table for the two of them when they go and order. Being unlucky again, there are 1 crazy guy come and talk to me. He asked me wat time is it.. and I simply answered "11". His gestures was so strange that Clarissa asked Patricia to eat faster so we can leave. [ cos Clarissa sitting nearer to that guy.. haha. i'm not the only 1 that's unlucky ] We leave around 11.15 then go buy pens in the nearby shop.. then go home around 11.30.

P.S. Clarissa.. u so bad! Nvr accompany me to the bus stop!! T^T .. Anyway, thx Patricia.. u so kind to come along with me. lols. ^^

P.S.2 .. srry.. i post too long =x

วันนี้ 'เขา' เท่ส์มากมายเลยอ่า..
เสียดายเห็นแค่แป๊ปเดียว > <
แต่ก็ต้องเริ่มทำใจแล้ว ~
ก็แหม คุณเอ สติกทูฮิมไล้อะแท๊ตทู ขนาดนั้น..
เพชรไม่ลากไปทำไรหรอกน่า -___- ~
อย่างน้อย..ก็จะรอให้คลาดสายตาซะก่อน 55555+

^^'' << my fake smile

2008-08-06T13:42:00.003+01:00

Another tiring day.. wish I can take a day off. So I can think about everything over again. I really did study hard for Maths but end up get only 44/50. Even TatChun got higher than me! What's wrong with me?? I'm very disappointed with myself. I mean.. 44 out of 50?? It's not even as high as I expected.. Anyway, I'll jus put that aside now and try harder next time..

Then, there's this last NDP rehearsal.. manage to get in the contingent at last. I afraid I make a fool of myself cos of the confused timing. But anyway, again, I'll try my best to make it as flawless as possible.

TIRING!!!

P.S. เฮ้อ! ว่าแล้วว่า..เขาคงจะไม่ตอบข้อความเพชรอ่า
เสียใจชะมัดเลย.. แต่ก็ยังไม่รู้ว่าใช่เบอร์เขาแน่ป่าว??
ลองดูๆๆๆ >w<
ชอบเธอ... มากมาย!!!

what am I suppose to do?

2008-08-05T16:04:00.002+01:00

1st of all, srry for not writing in eng. If you really want to kno what i write here.. jus come and ask me.

ตอนนี้..เพชรไม่รู้ว่าจะเอาไงอ่า..
แบบว่า.. ชอบเขาน่ะ ก็ชอบมากๆแล้ว.. แต่
พอมาคิดถึงคนอื่นอย่าง คุณเอ แล้ว
รู้สึกเหมือนเพชรเอาเปรียบเขายังไงก็ไม่รู้
เขาจะชอบไม่ชอบ คุณเอ เพชรก็ไม่รู้นะ
แต่ที่รู้ๆ.. คุณเอชอบเขา ตั้งแต่ปีที่แล้ว..
วันนี้ได้เบอร์เขามาด้วยล่ะ.. แต่ก็ไม่รู้ว่าจะเอาไง
ตอนนี้ลองส่งข้อความไปแล้วล่ะ.. เหลือแต่รอคำตอบ
ถ้าเขาไม่ได้ชอบเพชรเนี่ย.. เพชรก็คงแย่เหมือนกันนะ
เข้าใจว่า.. รักข้างเดียว..ไม่ควรหวังอะไรมาก
แต่เพชรชอบเขาเข้าแล้วจริงๆ.. ชอบมากๆด้วย
เพชรไม่ชอบเลย.. รักแล้วเห็นแก่ตัว.. แต่สุดท้ายแล้ว..
เพชรกลับเป็นซะเอง.. เพชรอยากจะหันกลับนะ
แต่ใจเพชรมันรั้งเอาไว้.. เพชรอยากขอโทษคุณเอที่เพชรชอบเขา
อยากขอบคุณเพื่อนๆทุกคนที่เป็นกำลังใจให้
และอยากวอนขอ.. ให้ปาฏิหารย์ ช่วยเพชรด้วย
อย่างน้อย..มองมาทางเพชรบ้าง..ก็ยังดี
ขอร้อง.. อย่าเมินเพชรเลย

{ น่าจะเจอกันมาตั้งนาน ก่อนที่เธอจะเป็นของใคร
อยากให้มันมีปาฎิหารย์ให้ตัวฉันย้อนเวลากับไป
จะไม่ยอมให้เราคลาดกัน ฉันคงจะพบรักเธอก่อนใคร
มันน่าเสียดาย ปาฏิหารย์ไม่มีจริง }

o-O Filming again?

2008-08-04T14:09:00.006+01:00

At 1st I thought someone was trying to b funny wif me but they actaually are not. We really need to re-filming the whole thing again!! Thanks to YK - - .. now we r going to ur house again, k? ^o^ LOL..

For me, this music proj. is fun but at the same time.. troublesome! Our final exam is alr around the corner u kno?? Meaning we need to study for it, right?? But still... we can't concentrate fully on it cos there's still this music proj. to complete. That explains why we can't do our revision for Maths.. Is that right, Clarissa? Hahahas

Today Maths CE was so-so for me. I think I won't fail but won't get high mark either. Nvm, later I can sue Mr.Ho for giving us this music project!! Kidding la.. [In case I fail, I'll surely sue him!! Hahahas]

After sch I went to Clarissa's house also. Suppose to b revising for Maths but end up chit-chatting. Hahahas.. We r girls ma.. so it's normal, isn't it? >o<

P.S. ตัดผมใหม่อ่อ?? น่ารักอ่าาา > <
ไม่ได้คุยกันมา 3 วันแล้วน้าาา.. ไม่คิดจะทักบ้างเลยอ่อ?? 55+
เอ้อ! แล้วก็วันนี้ตอนเดินลงมาจากชั้น 3 อ่านะ
กำลังคุยกับ แคริสซ่า เรื่องไปดู 'เขา' ถ่ายวีดีโอที่ พาร์คเวย์ พาเรด..
แล้วก็.. จ๊ะเอ๋!! สวนกับ คุณเอ ครับท่าน... TT^TT
สงสัยจะได้ยินหมดเลย..สายตาที่มองนี่อย่างเครียดแค้นเลย
เพชรยังไม่ได้ทำอะไรเลยนะ.. ทำไมต้องมองอย่างนั้นด้วยอ่าาาา
> < เครียดๆๆๆๆๆๆ.. ผิดที่เธอคนเดียวที่ทำให้ความรักเกิด.. เพื่ออะไร??
55555+

Monday, August 4, 2008

1st of all, I'm almost late for GB today. I overslept! Luckily, my uncle woke me up jus in time. I reached sch around 7.55 = 3= ... finally, I made it exactly jus before we fall in.

As usual, there are only a few of us. I jus dun understand how can the other girls get promoted when they rarely turn up.. It's so unfair. At the end of the badge work, Mrs.Tan told me that she'll take me as a reserve for the NDP 1st. If one of the girls dun turn up, she'll take me in the contingent.

I mean, not that I'm that good in drills but at least I make an effort to attend the rehearsals, unlike some of the selected girls.

Anyway, during rehearsal today, I can barely keep my eyes opened. The Sun was extremely bright! ( Did I exaggerate it too much? But it really was, you kno?.. Hahahas ) We were told to look up and keep our eyes open. Heeding the order, I suffered for abt an hour after that.

I reached home by 1 o'clock and felt like I hav no more energy. ( Will you left any if you've been marching for 2 hours under a blazing sun??) However, I hav Maths CE on Monday.. so I need to study for it. Hope I can get 90% & above.. >/\< .. สาธุ

P.S. หา.. ซีไอพี ยกเลิกอ่อ??
งี้ก็อดไปกับพวก เอ็นพีซีซี เลยอ่าดิ!!
T^T แงๆๆๆๆๆๆ.. เสียดาย!!
อดไปกับ 'เขา' เลยอ่า.. แต่ไม่เป็นไร
.. เพราะว่า วันพระไม่ได้มีหนเดียว!!
>o< รู้สึก..เราจะบ้าขั้นหนักแล้วน้าเนี่ย ตั้งใจเรียนเพื่อไปเข้า ทรีเอ ปีหน้า! 55555+

At last!!

2008-07-31T14:14:00.003+01:00

^o^ im so happy! At last I got 1st in a CE for the 1st time this term. I won't say I'm satisfied, I'm jus happy. Well, supposingly, if I study more, I should get higher than this. 48/50.. isn't that low?? Anyway, I promise to do better the next time round.

Today, we hav an IT-training on FLASH. It was fun! I made an animation of a pink little rabbit jumping up and down. Many ppl say my animation is cute but I think Patricia's one is cuter. She's talented in animation! I like the one she used in ignite! I want to be able to create those things like her ahhh. >o<

**P.S. That missing thing was found. The lessons with Ms.Lim will resume!!**

P.S. รูปๆๆๆๆ.. ชั้นไม่น่าไปกดเล่นเลย
ไฟล์รูปของ 'เขา' เสียหมดเลย = _ =
เสียดายยยยมากมาย..
> < พรุ่งนี้ลากแคริสซ่าไปถ่ายเป็นเพื่อนดีกว่า 55+ ไม่ได้บังคับน้า.. เพื่อนกันก็ไปด้วยกันดิ แหม.. ก็ไม่ได้ตั้งใจทำซักกะหน่อย แค่มือไปโดนนิดเดียวเอง T^T .. คืนนี้..ชั้นจะฝันถึงเธอ .. แหม..ทำไงได้ล่ะ? ภาพมันติดตาติดใจซะแล้ว! 55555+

Why don't u admit it?

2008-07-30T14:36:00.003+01:00

That's the question I really want to ask that person. 2Bs would kno what happened today and now thanks to that person, Ms.Lim won't be teaching us till final exam if he/she doesn't admit it.

What's on his/her mind now, I don't kno. But pls bear in mind that the whole class is now suffered. Why don't you at least stand up and tell the truth?

It's ok to make mistake but not admitting it is not. Everybody's willing to give you a chance. Who ever you are, pls stop playing this game, for the class's sake.

P.S. แงๆ.. วันนี้ได้แต่มอง 'เขา'
ไม่มีโอกาสเข้าไปคุย..
พรุ่งนี้ๆ.. เป็นวันโชคดีของเรา
จะเข้าไปคุยกับ 'เขา' ให้ได้
55+ เป็นไง..ฝีมือแต่งคำคล้องจองของเพชร
> < .. ลั่นล้า~ ชั้นชอบ 'เขา' มากขึ้นทุกวันหรอนี่? o-O!!!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

What a tiring day! Today my group went out to film 2 scence for our music video. Yes, it was tiring yet fun!

Starting from chasing Yue Keat & Brendan till eating lunch at McDonald's, we lose almost all of our energy!

Anyway, thanks for your co-operation, everyone! (Not really.. in case of that two boys.. but ya, a little credit for being co-operative once in a while)

Just by today, I think we have many NG scences already! Quite too much... but each of them are very funny that we, ourselves, can't hold our laughters!

> < ahh.. I can't wait to go to Vivo City to flim another scence.

P.S. วันนี้ได้คุยกับ 'เขา' อีกแล้ว
แหม.. ไม่ต้องมาอวดเรื่องคะแนนเลย
รู้แล้วว่าเก่งๆ.. นี่ถ้าไม่ชอบนายเนี่ย
..มาข่มกันงี้เค้าไม่ยอมน้าเนี่ย!!
แต่ก็นะ.. หยวนๆให้แค่คนเดียวน่ะแหละ
55+ เพชรเพ้อขั้นหนัก
.. เดี๋ยวๆ.. วันนี้ไม่ได้เจอกันแค่ครั้งเดียวน้าา
ตอนเดินกลับจากถ่ายวีดีโอก็เจอ..
'น่ารัก' ค่อดๆๆๆ เลยอ่า > <

ที่สำคัญ.. 'เขา' เป็นคนทัก เพชร ด้วย
แหมๆๆ.. กลับบ้านทางนี้ก็ไม่บอก
รู้งี้กลับทางนี้บ้างตั้งนานแล้ว!!
พอๆ.. ไปฝันกลางวันต่อที่อื่นดีกว่า
55555+

when? ... i jus wondered

2008-07-28T14:21:00.006+01:00

" I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am"

"Why must we all conceal?
What we think..
How we feel..
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that i’m
Someone else ...for all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?"

Reflection - Christina Aguilera

Ya.. that's exactly explained me. I love this song!! Some of u may think u see who i really am but u r not. I hate the way ppl judge me jus by looking at me. I hate pretending to b someone who isn't the real me. I'm tired to wear a mask. Yes, i can fool the world. But i can't fool my heart.

Is there anyone who truely understand me? Is there someone who i can rely on? Is there a place where i can express my feelings? Is there anyone who i can tell what's in my heart?

Then, when will my reflections show.. who i am inside?

P.S. วันนี้ 'เขา' เข้ามาทักอีกแล้ว.. คนอาร้ายย น่ารัก ชะมัดเล้ยยย > <
แบบประมาณว่า.. ใจมันหายละลายละลายละไหลไปกับเธอ 55+
เพ้อ+เว่อร์.. ความสุขส่วนตัว! ใครจะทำมัย??
เริ่มเพี้ยนแล้วชั้นนนน >o< แหม.. ก็ใครใช้ให้ชอบ 'เขา' ล่ะ??

Oh my, I'm so stessed! =(

2008-07-24T15:47:00.003+01:00

Oh.. today i'm so stress, man! There's Lit. Test. Followed by Hist. CE. I afraid i won't b able to get so high in both test. And as I told some of u, 'high' in my definition is 80% and above. I kno it's may b high a standard but i really really want to acheive that!

Back in Thailand, so many people are expecting gd results from me. My mom, my grandmom, my teachers.. they're all expected me to get gd grade. How can i disappoint them, esp. my grandmom?

I can't find too gd a reason to explain why i cried yesterday.. I'm jus.. felt so tried. So stressed out. So sad.. Mayb it's because of my Scienc CE result. It's very very low. Ya... I got only 47.5/60. I kno it's A1 but it's really really low for me. Then, I cried. I jus can't help it.

But now, i'm trying my very best to b strong. I've to sort these things out. I need to grow up. Being in S'pore is just another step towards independence. Anyway, thanks for all the moral support, everyone! I can now smile again!

P.S. วันนี้มีความสุขมากมาย แบบว่าได้คุยกับ 'เขา' ด้วย
จริงๆก็ไม่เชิงคุย.. จะเป็นเล่นเกมส์กันซะมากกว่า
55+ แหม..ก็อ่านะ เพชรก็เป็นซะอย่างนี้แหละ แค่นี้..ก็สุขล้น
เพราะ 'เธอ' คือ สีสันที่แต่งแต้มโลกสีเทาของฉัน > <